Ok, I have to confess and get it out of the way: I smoked on Sunday. It was a stupid thing to do, after a week without any. I'm quite disappointed in myself. :(
But I'm back to being good and learnt something from it.
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We had our Easter egg hunt yesterday. All that was left in the shops was a bag of tiny Kinder Bueno ones, so that's what I got. Himself very patiently hid nine of them all over the flat; on top of lights, into my make-up basket, into trinket boxes and into the jar of pens. Meanwhile I was laying on the sofa, under the blanket with my eyes and ears covered so that I wouldn't get any clues.
Himself followed me during the search and laughed at me most of the time. Can't blame him, I'd say it was some sight; Me climbing on top of things, jumping up and down to check the tops of the doorframes and lifting and moving every single thing on the tables and windowsills.
I found all of them. Just ate the last two with my tea a while ago.
I think that will turn into a tradition. And next year I'll try to remember to buy the eggs on time.
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We've been watching 80s movies lately. A friend of ours was shocked because I hadn't been educated in the area of 80s films and brought over a huge pile of them. Yesterday we watched Ferris Bueller's day off and Money Pit. And there's still a few to go... And yes, I have to watch them all. Knowing this particular person, there's going to be a pop quiz when we return the DVDs. :)
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14/04/2009
09/04/2009
...You know how hard it can be...
Two days of smoke-free life. Cold turkey -style. Not nice.
It's horrible, because I know how bad ciggies are for me. It's like saying goodbye to an old friend, who's been stabbing you into the back. Bad for you, but something you've gotten used to.
I've a headache and a case of annoyance. Which is better for me than the other option, I know.
An interview of John Lennon is playing in the background (I only realised that now, that's where my sub-conscious got the title from). Yoko's comments from the side aren't really helping my mood.
Sorry about this. I'd say the extra-grumpiness will pass soon enough. :)
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Oh, I love being able to use the oven again. We had "Italian-style Meatloaf" for dinner today. I'm having so much fun trying new recipes and Himself seems to enjoy the outcome.
I was happy, because we didn't need to shop in the supermarket today. Every part of the dinner was fresh and locally produced.
Am I the only one who gets excited about little veggie-shops? :D
It's horrible, because I know how bad ciggies are for me. It's like saying goodbye to an old friend, who's been stabbing you into the back. Bad for you, but something you've gotten used to.
I've a headache and a case of annoyance. Which is better for me than the other option, I know.
An interview of John Lennon is playing in the background (I only realised that now, that's where my sub-conscious got the title from). Yoko's comments from the side aren't really helping my mood.
Sorry about this. I'd say the extra-grumpiness will pass soon enough. :)
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Oh, I love being able to use the oven again. We had "Italian-style Meatloaf" for dinner today. I'm having so much fun trying new recipes and Himself seems to enjoy the outcome.
I was happy, because we didn't need to shop in the supermarket today. Every part of the dinner was fresh and locally produced.
Am I the only one who gets excited about little veggie-shops? :D
07/04/2009
Lazy day & movie night
Was feeling a bit sick yesterday, so we're going to take it easy today.
We were planning to have a "movie day", starting first thing in the morning, but there has been a good few visitors today.
Rented out Stepbrothers, Zack & Miri make a p***o and Baby Mama. Fairly harmless stuff, which is just what's needed on a day like this (it's raining, windy and grey, for a change...) Can't wait to get the duvet, some snacks and turn off the lights. And I have a feeling I'll be back to the videostore before it closes, to get Madagascar 2. :)
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I've gotten into baking again, now that the oven is working.
Made a little tea bread (not sure what it's actual name is in English) today, with grated carrot and cheese in the dough. 21 mins, including the baking and eating time. Quick and simple. :)
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Haven't been good with smoking lately. (I know, bad me...) So I'm going to try quitting again. (No ciggies yet today) The patches made me sick, so couldn't wear them while working. Does anyone have any good tips?
We were planning to have a "movie day", starting first thing in the morning, but there has been a good few visitors today.
Rented out Stepbrothers, Zack & Miri make a p***o and Baby Mama. Fairly harmless stuff, which is just what's needed on a day like this (it's raining, windy and grey, for a change...) Can't wait to get the duvet, some snacks and turn off the lights. And I have a feeling I'll be back to the videostore before it closes, to get Madagascar 2. :)
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I've gotten into baking again, now that the oven is working.
Made a little tea bread (not sure what it's actual name is in English) today, with grated carrot and cheese in the dough. 21 mins, including the baking and eating time. Quick and simple. :)
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Haven't been good with smoking lately. (I know, bad me...) So I'm going to try quitting again. (No ciggies yet today) The patches made me sick, so couldn't wear them while working. Does anyone have any good tips?
22/03/2009
We are the champions... :)
Ireland won the six nations rugby championship yesterday!
We went into a pub to watch the second half of the game. They were playing against Wales and the atmosphere was absolutely brilliant. The table next to us was full of Welsh people (they were easily spotted, being the only people shouting and roaring when the Welsh team scored). After the game I said to Himself that I should start supporting the Welsh, because even I could learn the names of the players (Half of them were called Jones, other half were Williamses).
We won at the end, with only few points difference. Himself took the night off and we met up with some friends.
I'll probably see a good few sore heads at work today. Even my boss was hugging and pulling random people up for a dance last night. And I can guess what the topic of the conversations with my customers will be...
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I had four ciggies yesterday. Bold me. I'll promise to be good again today.
We went into a pub to watch the second half of the game. They were playing against Wales and the atmosphere was absolutely brilliant. The table next to us was full of Welsh people (they were easily spotted, being the only people shouting and roaring when the Welsh team scored). After the game I said to Himself that I should start supporting the Welsh, because even I could learn the names of the players (Half of them were called Jones, other half were Williamses).
We won at the end, with only few points difference. Himself took the night off and we met up with some friends.
I'll probably see a good few sore heads at work today. Even my boss was hugging and pulling random people up for a dance last night. And I can guess what the topic of the conversations with my customers will be...
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I had four ciggies yesterday. Bold me. I'll promise to be good again today.
20/03/2009
Must be March madness
I'm back and can now think more clearly.
I have been depressed for about eight years now, having had better and worse patches along the way. To accompany my depression I had an eating disorder and was self-harming. I've been in a hospital because of it and gone through hours and hours of therapy when I returned back into "normal life". I tried different medication, which I ditched because I wanted to feel and didn't want to arrange my life around the pills. I have learnt to cope with myself better with time, but every now and again I hit a low. I cry, do whatever I have to do and get back up again.
This time it wasn't rest or reflection that got me up. It was Himself having a terrible nightmare, which he kept to himself and it started to follow him into the daytime as well. He finally told me what was eating him and I tried my best to help him out of it. He had his first panic attack a few days ago and I brought him out for a walk at five in the morning to clear his head.
He looks at me in amazement and tells me I'm the strongest person he has ever known.
I personally don't think it's a matter of strenght. It's just that I can understand how he feels, it's a familiar situation for me and I'm able to keep my head clear.
Yeah, I really am strange. More at home with all things crazy than normal, everyday life... :D
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I had my (hopefully) last cigarette yesterday and today is the first day of nicotine patches!
Wish me luck! :) (I give me max three days...)
I have been depressed for about eight years now, having had better and worse patches along the way. To accompany my depression I had an eating disorder and was self-harming. I've been in a hospital because of it and gone through hours and hours of therapy when I returned back into "normal life". I tried different medication, which I ditched because I wanted to feel and didn't want to arrange my life around the pills. I have learnt to cope with myself better with time, but every now and again I hit a low. I cry, do whatever I have to do and get back up again.
This time it wasn't rest or reflection that got me up. It was Himself having a terrible nightmare, which he kept to himself and it started to follow him into the daytime as well. He finally told me what was eating him and I tried my best to help him out of it. He had his first panic attack a few days ago and I brought him out for a walk at five in the morning to clear his head.
He looks at me in amazement and tells me I'm the strongest person he has ever known.
I personally don't think it's a matter of strenght. It's just that I can understand how he feels, it's a familiar situation for me and I'm able to keep my head clear.
Yeah, I really am strange. More at home with all things crazy than normal, everyday life... :D
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I had my (hopefully) last cigarette yesterday and today is the first day of nicotine patches!
Wish me luck! :) (I give me max three days...)
12/01/2009
Good news
Yesterday I was told they are going to increase my hours at work again. I was so relieved I nearly hugged the person delivering the news!
When I got home, we had our daily chat. We started counting all the good things that are going to happen this year, and the ones that have already happened, and agreed that it looks like year 2009 is going to be a brilliant year.
The things I look forward to most this year are my dad's wedding, (hopefully) an engagement of our two friends and a baby (or possibly two) in our close circle. Then there's the everyday joys of life; to be able to work more, cook for Himself every day (well, I'd say there might be a sneaky take-out or two...), go for walks with Angel Girl and other little things that really make me happy.
I also have some goals I've set for myself for the year, and I'm excited to see how I get on with them. I'm trying to create more things in different ways, keep the flat tidier, learn new recipes and complete a few sections of my studies.
All in all, the start of the year has been so good, I can't wait to see what happens next!
When I got home, we had our daily chat. We started counting all the good things that are going to happen this year, and the ones that have already happened, and agreed that it looks like year 2009 is going to be a brilliant year.
The things I look forward to most this year are my dad's wedding, (hopefully) an engagement of our two friends and a baby (or possibly two) in our close circle. Then there's the everyday joys of life; to be able to work more, cook for Himself every day (well, I'd say there might be a sneaky take-out or two...), go for walks with Angel Girl and other little things that really make me happy.
I also have some goals I've set for myself for the year, and I'm excited to see how I get on with them. I'm trying to create more things in different ways, keep the flat tidier, learn new recipes and complete a few sections of my studies.
All in all, the start of the year has been so good, I can't wait to see what happens next!
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